heaven
9:22 p.m. - 27.04.04
I haven't died.....
.... I simply feel like I have.....
... and then gone to heaven.
Of course this feeling will only last for so long...
lets see.. where shall we begin?
First and foremost Bean has been on a psychological journey analyzing anything and everything in her life and has stumbled upon the following:
Bean needs to go back to school
Bean needs to be more active
Bean needs friends
Yes, the ever so popular Bean has but one person she can sincerely call a friend...
not because hes there for her... not because he helps to make things better... not because he makes her laugh... but because he's real....
... not to say the rest of my friends are imaginary....
perhaps I should rephrase it to, he's honest.
He'll tell Bean if she's getting fat - he'll tell Bean if she's being a b*tch- he'll tell Bean she's wonderful- he'll advise the Bean without passing judgement....
.. and for that he's an enchanting person.
I believe I've introduced him to the bean chronicles in the past as the "Uncousin"...
the man who is not quite (but might as well be) married to my cousin. The one I was maliciously accused of trying to spark an affair with...
.. which let me tell you was never valid considering the fact that his 6 foot tall wife could beat the shit out of me any given time and day...
.. violence is bad.
On the man front I should probably mention a guy I've recently met at a club two weeks ago. If I were a kitty, he'd be my ball of yarn...
.. fun for a while until a more stable dazzling string comes along.
Besides, this particular ball of yarn is simply looking to tickle the kitty (if you get what I mean)...
.. not gonna happen folks. The man has a child and I'm not looking to bare his second.
So if we recap for a moment we've learned that Bean has one friend, and no real man or action in her life...
.. so where exactly does the "heavenly" part of her emotions come into play???
Well you see my friends, Bean is currently on vacation from work until Monday night. An entire week with absolutely zero responsibilities....
.. yes little ones.. that is heavenly....